I’m seeing a therapist…

After years of going back and forth in my own mind, because I dare not tell a soul I was thinking of seeing a therapist, I finally did it. I started going to counseling with Better Help, which is virtual therapy. I was a little skeptical at first, but there is still the option of seeing them via video chat. Also, when I compared prices to a therapist in my area, which was around $200/session and not covered under my insurance, I knew I had to look for something else.

Being a single mom working a “middle class” job, most of my income go towards the necessities and towards paying of debt I had accumulated years ago when Harper was a baby and her dad lost his job. So there is not a lot of extra income for things that I don’t need to have. But over the years, I have realized that A) Therapy isn’t just for people who are “crazy” and B) I need someone to tell me the things I am thinking and the way I am feeling is totally valid.

I play over scenarios in my head over and over again, for year, and they are mostly scenarios from my childhood or things that I have done in my adult years that can stem back to things that had in my childhood. I would get kind of obsessed with trying to solve these puzzles. Why do I push people away that I actually want close to me? Why do I yell at my daughter when I instantly feel like a terrible person? Why can’t I speak up to tell people what is truly on my mind? And so many, many more things. Once I started talking to my counselor she really opened my eyes to see that the things I were thinking weren’t crazy and there were valid reasons that I felt the way I did and did the things that I did.

Making this choice has been one of the best things I have ever decided to do for myself. My counselor has helped me see my depression patterns, my anxiety patterns, and even my patterns of pushing people away, as I even tried to pull that on her. She is a sounding board for all the things I don’t want to put on other people’s shoulders and I am so thankful for her!

If you are interested in therapy, Better Help offers reduced rates if you qualify, so I can talk to my counselor via chat Monday through Friday and set up phone calls or video chats for $200/month!

And if you have any questions, feel free to reach out! I love talking about my experience with therapy!